Coincidental or Pretend ?

Came to another year end , I believe that everyone have their resolution for their better next year. One of my friends chat with me and asked me about this.  So , I just answer whatever things that came to my mind that time. I told him , I didn’t made any of it.
He sounds surprise and asked me why and I replied that every year I felt just the same routine. The only difference is one year older. And another reason why is because I don’t wanna make too high expectation on things that I wanted it to be.

I’m tired to be disappointed. 

Because I felt that when I putting too much expectation on things usually I don’t get it or maybe not like what I expected.
I know I might sound greedy. Everyone does so. 
You know what, dear; I don’t get your mind. everything was just coincidental or pretend.
I’m confusing the way you treat me. If our relationship more than one year+ maybe I can understand why you did so. But we don’t. we just start not even reach a month and everything kind a mess. 
Maybe that how u communicates with your ex before and you already used to be that way.
But, I’m not.  You never ask or even a word of concern how I going on today or maybe everyday.

 I received many messages and calls from friends wishing me happy new year  But every time , I get my phone and I start disappointed. Just because all msg n call not from you.
I’m childish, huh? I AM ! I need somebody could talk with me and at least concern. :(
Is that over ? –sigh-
I LOVE therefore I CARE.  I know over caring might be annoying.
So, I’m stuck myself in a dead road. Decide to love you more or love you less.

Lets fate decide~ you make me kek ki but at the same time you make me even love u more.   I’m tired and I don’t feel like writing more.

Our first visit - War Musuem : D

Recently fall in love with this song,   ~~ FAR AWAY – Nickelback~ ~

I keep on repeating this song. Represent all my feelings to you.  

You still remember ^what if^ song ? that’s the song that courage me to take a step further . :)

  I’m believed that we cannot Love when filled with suspicion, we cannot forgive when unwilling to believe, we cannot trust when filled with doubts.  


>XoXO< I’m excited for my upcoming birthday . I don’t wish much. I just hope somebody I love to celebrate with me and my all good good friends along ! I don’t need surprise . because with all of you with me , I happy enough ! haha. 28 / 2/ 2011 :)


-i want to upload all year pic but upload system seems down. just manage upload one :(